February 2012
1 post
#2: A special birthday celebration
Jackie woke up on the morning of her 16th birthday
Jackie yawned, and inhaled the weight of the rest of her life, one year briefer,
Jackie gasped as it crushed her
Jackie brushed her teeth with a grimace
Jackie hates mint
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Jackie walked around thinking about what it meant to be 16
Jackie had never kissed anyone
(In three months she would seduce the kitchen boy at her girls camp, he would...
January 2012
3 posts
To the future of our nation
WARNING
Getting A D in any class will legitimately ruin your life
If you get a D, you wont go to college, no sir, you can forget about that.
No grad school will accept a student who get’s D’s.
Not only will they send you a letter of rejection
They will also mail you an envelope containing anthrax
To help purge the gene pool of D students.
People will look away from you as...
The First Month Off The Medications You Have Been...
At one week,
The headaches move from ear to ear
A reminder that your body does not approve
Your eyes dart like strobe lights
Nausea turns a few blocks into a rhythmic hell
The cruelest metronome
Never misses a beat
Forget “advil” or “Tylenol”
This is retribution for dependency
You are paying for 14 years of borrowed comfort
Each breath feels hazardous
Each step is just that, one small step in what...
December 2011
1 post
3 words: fluorescent, scallops and pineapple
Fluorescent skin
A green, sunless tint in the pockets of her collarbone
Eyes like scallops
Hard, unfocussed and flat against her sallow face,
Her soupspoon cheeks
A steady diet of chicken nuggets and week old pineapple wedges,
Drowning in their own fermenting juices
She is drowning in her own fermenting juices
When she smiles, no one sees the grin
Only the bones it reveals
She’s a willow...
November 2011
8 posts
“Upon transfer to Santa Rita jail, demonstrator Andrea Barrera was denied her...”
– Susie Cagle in her account of being arrested for being a part of Occupy Oakland. Just in case you weren’t convinced already about what a bunch of worthless shitheels the Oakland PD is. (via hungryghoast)
October 2011
6 posts
Oakland
If you haven’t watched the video yet, you should, if not just for some perspective. It’s disgusting, I don’t even know what this country has come to when police are throwing flash canisters at protesters as they RUSH TO THE AID OF SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN BADLY INJURED. It’s just disgusting.
...
WatchAllow me an America i can be proud of
theilldefined:
This made me cry. Let’s go.
paperlesswords:
“We come to you at a time when corporations, which place profit over people, self interest over justice and oppression over equality, run our governments…”
occupy boston
so, shits going down in boston, and i’m thinking i should probably go home and join them. For some reason, it happening in boston 20 minutes from where my parents live has made it even more real than it already was with people from new paltz being arrested and pepper sprayed…im thinking next weekend im going to drive home, any who want can join me (within the limits of my car)
September 2011
1 post
the challenge
romance is an elusive prospect,
mostly separate from sex, even great sex,
added like creme to coffee, making everything taste a little better
for me anyway
perhaps the problem is that i don’t like hot drinks…
August 2011
2 posts
Scotland
Thought i would make a little update:
Scotland is gorgeous, the old part of the city has retained most of it’s medieval architecture, so it is simply the most beautiful city i have ever been in! I’m hiking the Crag today so that i can roll around in the heather, and tomorrow i will bring others!
(I want to hike it the first time alone)
Scottish boys are beautiful and had lovely...
perhaps a bird?
eyes fins and ears
i was not meant for this world
and how nice to watch human suffering, and know it’s not for me
how sad to watch human beauty and long for what can’t be
July 2011
2 posts
go to this site and say you're under 21 →
handgrenade2:
This is hilarious.
June 2011
6 posts
bored, restless, detached
the thought of a summer without romance or excitement is enough to strike a deep seated boredom and general loneliness into me, and i don’t think there’s anything i can do about it. Boston seems more boring by the minute, and it makes me want to drive elsewhere just for the sake of being elsewhere. I’m leading a camping canvass in the south shore for the first half of the week,...
zoloft (or lack thereof)
you have been without for a little over a week,
and you can feel it chipping away at your reserves,
like vines creeping from empty bottles up your arms
ever closer
scratching at your throat
every disappointment, a chink in your facade
your paint is peeling
all things airborn eventually fall
it appears to be a cry at random things sort of night
a relationship moment in the movie Brick that i watched with friends tonight got me
i opened a box of electronics i packed and saw the mouse that phil got for me, that got me too
someone reblogging my poem and saying they love me, that got me
writing about crying about a mouse phil got me two seconds ago, and we’re off!
a late night walk inspired free write
it is 1 o’clock in the morning and i am floating again
it is a familiar feeling,
floating like sleeping in the backseat with a bed 50 feet away
floating like all my weights have been cut
my strings untied
it is dark and i cannot quite see the ground
the smooth side of my wrench is cool against my thumb
at 1 o’clock
everybody drives too fast and too bright
droplets...
kind of a poem, sort of
sleepless and unable to still my body
I think about your cold hands brushing my legs
i think about fog filled mountains and the comfort of my blanketed backseat
less painful that my bed
i think about breathing for the first time since i scraped out that lung
i think about soft kisses and sandpaper skin
couches made for two
straining against woven confines
the futility of these sort of...
May 2011
8 posts
This girl takes beautiful pictures. Check her out.... →
an email from dad about my mermaid act
Jackie, I was thinking more about your burlesque performance, and decided to send you my thoughts. I thought that your initial presentation, with the zany mermaid outfit was absolutely stunning! Then including the rollerblades was a really, really graceful touch – looked beautiful. As I think you intended, the part with where your ripped off your mermaid legs (only to still be shackled by the...
huzzah! →
jenniferjuniper-:
Four whores and seven queers ago, a wise woman by the name of Lucida Sans gave her famous “I Have a Wet Dream” speech. It was on that fateful day that Lucida proclaimed her hope for a new world. This new world would be filled with an over-abundance of love and glitter, a world where men would be free to speak loudly and stroke their bigs sticks and where woman would...
Anti-Abortion Bill Passed. →
just kill me now
i really thought we were moving forward
wrong
maybe i will run away to amsterdam like Prof P did when america got too stupid
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Osama
So everybody is talking about it, my history class, the people eating lunch one table over, facebook, tumblr, and i figured that since everyone needs to know my opinion about everything, i would chip in.
This feels wrong. I learned about his death when Phil and I were looking at his newsfeed, seeing things about vengeance and how much god loves america. People are reacting very strongly, and...
April 2011
15 posts
?/30
I need a fresh pair of eyes
a new perspective
someone who can discover something new in me
someone who can breathe into my mouth and inflate me
more than late nights and colorful fabrics
its easy to believe that we create meaning as a consolation
when there’s no one there to disagree
water water everywhere but not a drop to drink
?/30
oh limerance
you parasite of the foolish
proprietor of wandering thoughts
sensing repressed hope like a wolf
sinking your teeth into the guillable
all it takes is a seed of hope
and the branches spread through your synapses
scratching at your scull
insisting upon your thoughts like a petulant child
thrilling
exhausting
reminiscent of a time before you knew that there were other ways
?/30
Ive never been in a lightening storm in nyc before
It makes me think of someone sicking their guard dog on ironman
7/30 ~
propriety is such a tough entity
when all i wanted that night was you kissing me
45 minutes negotiating so i could have it
guilt free
Tired
Wake up
Take shower
No one can interrupt a shower
Groom
Remove unappealing hair
Comb hair
Forget your meds
Take your meds
Look presentable
Comfortable with your body
You are ok with the state of your body
Go to class
It is cold
Your hair becomes tiny glass curls
Crush them, see if you will shatter
Stay awake in class
Doodle long enough to keep hold of your consciousness
Everyone in this class...
6/30 The Choice
What gives toilets the
Right to decide when I am
Done. What fucking nerve
5/30 The First Flight
Like being rocked to sleep by a very, exceptionally angry mother
Say uncle
4/30 The Transformation
i’ve been as subtle as i can
my hair is so long, it almost fully covers my chest
soon shirts will be a thing of the past, unnecessary
i’ve taken precautions
tucking my ears behind my hair whenever possible
swear and spit and
but each day it gets harder to keep my feet on the ground
to walk across campus, when flying is so much faster
but waiting is easier when the end is in...
3/30 Potential
potential is the toughest
the knowledge that it could be different,
better even
without the motivation or self control to make it so
constantly rationalizing both sides of the argument
going nowhere