Tired
Wake up
Take shower
No one can interrupt a shower
Groom
Remove unappealing hair
Comb hair
Forget your meds
Take your meds
Look presentable
Comfortable with your body
You are ok with the state of your body
Go to class
It is cold
Your hair becomes tiny glass curls
Crush them, see if you will shatter
Stay awake in class
Doodle long enough to keep hold of your consciousness
Everyone in this class wears a mask and yours will be gold
Iridescent
You will make them want to look at you
You hope someone in there wants to look at you
Wade through the red tape river for outside activities
Meetings
Two meetings
One now, one later
Read the syllabi for your classes
Trudge through the reading for your classes
Worry about the papers for classes
Worry about the elements not related to your classes
He says that your body has changed since you first met
Your stomach is bigger
Sometimes he doesn’t want to have sex with you
Sometimes he doesn’t want to have sex with your stomach
Dreamt last night that your mom and sister remarked on your huge stomach
In the dream it was huge
You are ok with the state of your body
You were ok with the state of your body
You can’t really tell anymore
What is he thinking about when he fucks you?
He didn’t mean it
He feels like a jerk
He loves you
That’s good
No tears today
No tears tomorrow either
Reap your education
Meet other students
Draw your conclusions
Consider the colors of your notebooks
Beige
You weren’t excited for school this time
Read your books
Dramatics are flaring alarmingly in your rear view
Dreams are no indication of the future or any divine sensibility
It has been two days
It has been four days
It is the weekend
It is Sunday and deadlines have never seemed so much like trip wire
Work ahead
Procrastinate
Check email
Check facebook
Search for anything that will tear you away
Say you’re preparing for a tough semester
Say you are a performer
The avid student speaking up in class
Imbued with the somewhat controversial belief
That everyone should hear your opinions about everything
The organizer of people
Calling and signing and turning in pieces of your regime
the affectionate girlfriend
Burrowing into the shoulder of someone you hope can save you
Playing the role you most need at any given moment
Say you cant quite remember how you felt before this moment
Say you don’t know how you got so tired
You’re just not sure how you got so tired
So fast
